#HumansofWMP Kim Yeomans, Force Chaplain
“All through my adult life I have strived to be the best I can. I had a successful career, a home, a wife and two beautiful boys.
“But five years ago I found myself engulfed by a darkness I could not escape from. I was considering whether ending my life would be a blessing to my family. Spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically I was a mess. I had never experienced mental health problems or recognised I had one before.
“In a man’s world we often don’t talk because we are taught not to, that real men don’t cry and that showing emotion is a sign of failure. I decided that needed to change.
“As a Christian, I have always believed that God had a plan for me and I started to volunteer for the force’s chaplaincy service, as well as for ChaplaincyPlus, which supports the business community in Birmingham.
“I wanted to help people to be transparent and talk about how they are feeling.
“Two years ago things started to go wrong again for me. Each day was a struggle, but I didn’t know why. I was having night terrors and dreams of things I couldn’t understand. Events I had no recollection of.
“I had been living a lie, believing that my parents raised me in a loving and compassionate home. Now I go to see a counsellor to go through the past and to accept what actually happened in my childhood. My diagnosis was I had Post Traumatic Stress disorder (PTSD) – that shocked me.
“One thing that I hold dear to me is a friendship I have. Someone who listens, supports me and allows me to cry when I had forgotten how. In life we all need friends and it is this friendship that has helped me through my darkest days.
“We can all make a difference to how each other’s day goes. I hope sharing my story will help other men who are struggling to unlock what is trapped within them.”